Was very sicked actually but i put on a strong front. The fact that i can't even force myself to smile and open my eyes wide. I held the camera and took fotos of them playing in the sandstorm area again. i was lIke why am i here again? I am afraid the dust will irritate my throat even further. Somehow, i managed to escape from there and i did some painting.

I Emo-ed the whole day. I had no mood to talk and eat. We went to the lake to relax but i cannot feel the happi mood. I was still feeling lousy and sick. I tried the grilled chicken which was quite tasty.

The guys managed to chase the mouse away from our room. hOoray.. i can sleep tonight.

Day 3 in cambodia:(13/12/2008,Saturday):
Our whole team started with drawing of pictures on the walls of Angkor Wat School. I only drew one heart coz my drawing skills are lousy. Tracy is a great artist and she is definitely a perfectionist. Our progress was super fast. We managed to draw and paint. Painting was fun =) So, the 1st half of the morning was hmmm quite happi =)

Things started to change after lunch, where the whole team was split into 2 groups, one group did painting while the other played games with the small kids. Me? me played games with the kiddies.. Firstly, we were forced by the teacher (sai liap) n the host to buy tibits for the kids coz we forgot to bring the tibits we bought from the market on to the bus. The host's face went immediately black when cp said we forgot to bring it on bus. So at that moment, the host's reply was so we had to buy now. THIS Moment?? SO urgent?? Okie fine. Sai liap brought cp to buy 12 packets of prawn crackers. I Got a Huge shock when i got off the bus to see about maybe more than 60 kids waiting.. First thot was wah we onli got 12 packets of crackers..how to distribute man!! second thot was lucky man was simply too much! i think he called them to come.. Sai liap beckoned cp to go and buy more while the 5 of us stood there waitin.. So, the 5 of us stood there helpless, with kids surrounding us.. in the end we opened up the crackers and distributed.. it's just scary and intimidating to have so many eyes eyeing at the pathetic amount of tibits we had on our hands. Finally cp came back with more tibits.. we continued distributing... the angry part came was when sai liap still hinted to us that there wasn't enough...She said the kids can't share the tibits. come on!!. everyone had their share alreadi.. And dOn tell us they are still hungry.. tibits DON FILL THE stomach.. real proper rice does..

The worst part had yet to come.. To me, playing the kind of games at that place was the worst. Diaster!

1. Hide and seek -- The kids just ran and ran, they were a bit hyper and they sure had lots of energy.. It wasn't really fun, coz it's impossible to catch one and when they ran, dust and hay filled the air.. creating a SMOkY and blurry atmosphere.The kids hid in hay filled with cow shit.

2. The chasing and beating game (the bat used was cloth) -- in this game, we had to squat down in a circle while the person with the bat circled around us to choose one person. The chosen one will use the bat to hit the person to the right of him while the person kana hit will run. It damn tiring to squat for soo long.. and the kids were so rough. They hit each other soo hard until a sand storm can be seen. OUr eyes were so uncomfortable.. tears started to fill up the rim of my eyes and eventually tears flowed down.

3. London bridge is falling down-- we sang like a million times.. Sang until i was so sick of it. Was shocked when yanting said she could hear my voice from the school. Did i sing that loud? Maybe, that why i am having a bad sore throat now..

4. Catching game (blindfolded)-- The cloth to blindfold us was the cloth used in the beating game and it was veri veri dirty.. they threw it into the cow dung filled soil. and i bet they never wash the cloth b4.

After the games, i managed to talk to gary for a while and he told me he saw a rat when he was cleanin out the girls room and they didn't believe him.

I ate panadol and lot of lozenges already and i still feels like cutting my throat away. Just had today's team meeting. We thought of all the possibilities why they forced us to buy tibits and not proper meal for the kids.

1. Previous volunteers did that
2. To offset the money used to buy bread + mineralwater for us
3. Singaporeans are rich-- SO must use chopper to chop them
4. Coz we still owe them money ( was shocked when cp said lucky man asked the debtors to come all the way to angkor wat sch juz to so call visit cp) (motive: get money) (we delayed the last payment for our own good)

Just now, at the point of time when the whole team was veri lost how to handle the situation, Anson spoke up. I realizes he is veri good at analyzing as well as bringing us back to the right track by reminding us the aim of coming here.

My thinking is it just can't be helped. The vicous cycle will continue. They will be forver dependent on others to give them material things and they will just get more greedy.

I finally understand the motive of asking us to distribute clothes to the children yesterday. Is it clear to u? The host is trying to hint us to give things to the kids. wahhahaa... how can we go empty-handed? actualli, we didn't, the school they kids are using now is the contribution from us.

We also played team bonding game after the meeting. it's amazing and meaningful. Lesson learnt: Try to see things from all angles. Some ppl sees big pic , while some can only see small picture. So the whole team got to share with each other, as well as to analyze problems together.. the person who sees big pic got to somehow lead and guide the person who can only see small picture.