I m not sad. But not happi either. something is weighin me down.. m just tired..
life is juz contradicting. when the preceptorship was cancelled.. i was super unhappi and was veri sad.. i dunno wad i can do in future. future seems bleak to me.The feelin was so bad until i can't enjoy my malacca trip.. when i recieved the ivle sms in malacca.. i was over the moon.. Now, preceptorship had started.. feelings neutral now.. not happi or sad.. juz tat no extra energy to smile.. 2 wks at op realli tired me out.. the 2 wks were spent like this:
from 9 to 6 everyday: standing and packing..
6 to 8pm: on the way home, dinner
8pm onwards: Do prescriptions and get ready for case study discussion..
(The 4 case discussions realli konked me out.)
I was so busy until i ignored smses that i deemed not that impt and chose not to reply first. I was so busy until i didn hav enough of sleep (avg no of hrs 5 to 6). I was in such a bad mood until i didn't help my mum to do much housework and not sympathetic enough over her back injury.
Soon, i wun rmb how happi i was back in dec... soon, i wun rmb how wide my mouth can scretch.. If i didn't open that damn door on the last two days of the trip.. i won't emo for 2 wks when i was back and the trip would end with a happy ending.
